Today has been a rough day for me. Each time I sat down to update my blog I would have waves of emotions. Now I finally sit down and the day is almost over.
It started pretty rough the minute I woke up. I knew it was his birthday the minute my eyes opened. There were so many times before that I would wake up on this day, run into his room, jump on his bed and yell, "Whose birthday is today?" He would wake up instantly and with those deep dimples, smile and say, "It's mine!" I didn't run into his room today. I layed in bed, closed my eye and tried to visualized 19 birthdays spent with him. They were happy, fun, exciting and action packed birthdays. I wondered at that very moment if he was laying in bed remembering those days and his crazy mother and how I loved doing that.
He was supposed to be born on December 20th. I remember when the doctor told me what my due date was. I cringed. I didn't want to have a baby in December and especially 5 days before Christmas. There was always so much to do in December to get ready for Christmas and I knew that if I was due on the 20th, I would probably be late and end up spending Christmas Day in the hospital having him. What kind of Christmas would that be for Melissa, who was only 5 and what kind of future birthdays would that be for him. But Brent was too big and so I was induced and he was born on the 5th ~ 20 days before Christmas. It wasn't until he was in High School that he made me realize just how wonderful it is to have a birthday in December. Brent told me one day, "Mom, two of the greatest men in my life were born in December. Jesus Christ and Joseph Smith". Simply stated, but true.
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If he were here I would tell him, "Brent, three of the greatest men in my life were born in December. Jesus Christ, Joseph Smith & you".
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3 comments:
Oh Lori, that was so sweet to read! I know how much you miss him, but I know that he is thinking of you today, too. SO many wonderful memories you have given to him in his life! You are a blessing to each other, dear friend. Sending big hugs your way!:) Lori
That was so sweet! It's hard when you have a special day come along when your child is on a mission. You wonder what they are doing and if anyone remembered to tell them Happy Birthday or did anyone do anything special for them. In the end it doesn't matter because they are busy doing the best thing they cold be and that makes it worth it!!
I hope YOU had a happy day remembering!
awww Lori, that was sweet. Happy Birthday to Brent in Peru! And I'm sure he is remembring the good times he had with you.
Sadie was due Christmas Eve. And honestly, I thought to myself, what better present could there be than to have a baby on Christmas day... yeah, I couldn't think of any either :)
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